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Everybody has a different approach to life.  Some think of life as Jello-O - cool and sweet at first taste, but once you stop caring, life melts and disappears.  Others think of it as hard candy - rough but always sweet in the end. The harder working ones like to imagine it like a grapefruit: hard and annoying, yet bitter and sloppy in the end, yet they always know what's best for them...

Every second in our lives, an uncountable amount of information is processed across the world through computers, phones, and our heads.  She slept lightly that night, waking up to every sound that rung in her ears.  She knew something was up but she could not identify the problem.

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Every one looked for somewhere ideal to settle down, and when they do, they try their best to continue on shortly after.  They spoon themselves whatever they can get out of life, trying to be in control.  Being in control, I wonder what it's like...

As the earth revolves, countless lives are stolen for no reason for 'the sake of mankind'.  As she woke up this morning, her dreams shattered into a million pieces, never to be put back together.  As I speak now...her heart is broken as she watches him walk away, without the ability to do anything...anything at all.  Stay in control, she told herself.

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Control is always missing.  Everything planned never goes as planned - there is no such thing as perfectly.  I wonder what's it like to feel in control, knowing that the next thing will never be as expected...

If the world chose to wait one day, maybe she would have enough time to catch up.  She summons her pride and decides to take her car instead of taking the transport...all so the she could have control.  She wants to know what control feels like, instead of handing over her control to the bus driver.  Gotta be in control, she told herself.

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For me, life is just your first cigarette.  At first, you will cough until you choke.  You'll then proceed to try again...careful not to break the fragile cigarette and before you even get the hang of it, it'll be all over.

Even drivers don't have full control of everything.  There are the traffic lights which keep turning red as you approach one after another.  There are the cars who drive incredibly slow on a major avenue.  Then there are the hopeless who drink their lives away and decide to drive...Still in control, she told herself.

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I would never want to have control - imagine all the pressure put on me if I was in control.  I wouldn't even touch the dark powers that surround this globe.

Have you ever thought about your own life for a second? A fatal car crash isn't even serious anymore...at least not to us.  Death creeps upon the face of our lives, yet we continue to live on like we're invincible.  One drink too much, one toke too much, one snort too much and one second off the wheel too much.  Just watch...

One girl done and thrown out like another cigarette... control...

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The more control we have of our lives, the less powerful we'll become...

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